I have hit a wall, or something. Church was excruciating *how do you spell that?* to sit through on Sunday. I was hot, I was yucky feeling, and just DID NOT want to be there. Praise and Worship wasn't anything great, and the message, I could bearly sit through. I remember thinking, please hurry up, I just can't sit here anymore.
Geez, I've NEVER felt like that, but I just couldn't help it. I don't know what the deal was. I don't think that it is time for a change, because I don't have another choice for a place to go. I guess thats NOT a perk to living in a small town. At times, I'm really uncomfortable being there because of the way people look at me. I know I am not there for the people, but for the Lord, but the people make it hard to be there. Aye, what is one to do.
The weekend for me was ok. I don't have any complaints. There was a family reunion this weekend. I went to the dance. It was ok, I saw the girl that everyone seems to keep mistaking me for. You'd think because I was born here they'd know me. I don't look like this girl. She has curly hair and wears glasses, *I guess we are the ONLY TWO in this small city that does* I honestly don't think that the family cares much for me. They've always given me that impression. If they DON'T have to talk to me they won't. I'm ok with that, I just think it is funny.
I just realized this sounds like an everyone is out to get me post. Oh dear!! It's not a big deal, I just think it's funny. In the 2 places that I want to be *church and family* I get these no so great vibes. I'm living, and I'm good, so that is all I'm worried about.
Now I am paranoid at sound like I'm one of those sillies that think everyones out to get them. THIS IS MY DIARY DANG IT!!! LOL
Be Blessed!
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I completely understand about your church comments. I don't think I live in quite as small a town as you do, but I get the same feelings a lot. Just wanted you to know that you aren't alone!
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