It's almost mine!!

I've been sitting, waiting patiently to hear something about the house. I've finally found one and have signed what needs to be signed to almost say it's MINE! In a few days I'm hoping to hear something about the inspections that are being done, and the last things done with the loan. I so wish I had the money to say here is a huge portion of the money, now GIMMIE! If it was only that easy.

Next step that I can do on my own, Home Insurance. Yeah, I had a heck of a time trying to get car insurance now I have to shop around for another type.

Ahh well...here goes nothing...off to so some research.

Happy New Year!

Yeah I am a little late, what is new. I've been sick hah! Can you believe it. My first I am sick of the year. It didn't HAVE to be on the first, but hey, I wouldn't be me any other way eh?

Had a good time ringing in the new year with family. We all gathered into the living room of my auntie's house and watched the ball drop *an hour ahead of our time thing* and ahh and oohed, then at the stroke of midnight central time, we clanked our champagne glasses together, hugged and drank. I caught myself getting teary eyed, could have smacked me and then went on about the celebrations. I ALMOST let myself come down to that level, but caught myself and wasn't about to go down that road. Silly me!!

I had yesterday off, lol I was bored, had to find something to do. I had dinner with Ams and the new family. It's odd going over there now. The house is full of kids, the foster parenting seems to be working out for them, I'm happy for em. There are 2 kids that she has that I just adore. I would so take them for mine, if I had funds and had a place of my own.

I've still scouring the net for a place that offers Social Word degrees online. No college around here makes it a tad hard to do so at a college. I found something out of Alaska, but I am not sure if they will let me get it. Something about the way it was worded threw me off. I'm waiting for an e-mail back from them. We'll see.

I like The Cure. Just thought I would throw that in there.

Be Blessed!

Where are you Christmas...

Ahh, the season came and went so quickly! Remember as a child it came so slowly. School never seemed to end, then you got this long break it seemed. I miss those days.

I had a really good Christmas, got a few goodies, ate like a pig and just relaxed. Well I slept a bit, I didn't sleep much at all Christmas Eve, I was wanting to sneek a peek at old St. Nick :P

Now I'm waiting for New Years to come around. Wow, what a year!!! I can't believe it is coming to and end so fast, only a few more days left. I think I am just going to hang out with family to ring in the new year. I have been invited to go to a friend's bro's house but I don't know if I want to do that. I think family is the way to go this holiday :P

I'm off to ebay, I'm wanting to get this work out dvd that I've been hearing about.

nothing like a movie

to help you realize how miserable you are

i r dead

it'd be nice to be able to function sometime this december. ugh, doods i've been since since the 1st, and yeah just because it's the 4th doesn't mean it hasn't been that long. i swear if this crap lasts through the 24th, i'm going to seriously beat something.

i'm still not able to hold my head up properly LOL picture a 26 no wait 27 year old bobbling head, kind of like a newborn. lmao i must be half dead because i'm laughing at my own crap. geez, i hope this is gone by the weekend. i just want to relax this weekend. i don't even want to go shopping, just a time to veg and be merry.

i left my drink in Austin, ugh, now i won't be merry this weekend.

whyyyyyyyyyy.................

hmmmmm, i don't have any news to share other then my car is going to really really cost me, if I can't figure out what is going on with it. the car dealership is good to go, as long as i pay out the wazoo for it.

...i remember when i didn't have to do all this paying and car dealing on my own...it was so much easier then...but i wouldn't go back to that for the world...

meh.

...it's no Starbucks :|

I want coffee, it's been on my mind for the whole week. The closest Starbucks is 51 miles away, mebe a bit further. Out of luck, so there is a place here that sales some. I decided mebe I should try it sometime. Well this a.m. I broke down and went to get some. I can't tell you how much I pay at Starbucks, but here, I decided to get the tall, hah! I should have gone with the Grande, Pengui, what are you thinking??

So here I am about 20 mins later and the stuff is still TOO hot for me to drink. I know coffee is hot, but dood, I would like to keep my lips and tongue. It isn't too bad tasting, but I'm spoiled, I like my fancy schmancy coffee. Now I must have some, and soon.

Random Words

ok, words that are put together to make some sort of sense, but not really. perfect start. i was watching the news, and they were talking about "baby grace" and of course, i think they are finding something to blame her death on. her mom and the boyfriend, I guess, mebe they were married, anyhow, they met on world of warcraft, and there was talk of being "obsessed" with the game. On the news this a.m. they made a point to show the fighting n such in the game, and how people from all over get into it and spend hours and hours on the comp playing. Anyhow, the dood really did a number on this kid. She had 3 skull fractures, and had been thrown across the room, some other stuff as well. It was just horrible to hear/read, during research later.

they didn't say that it WAS because of WoW, but they made it a point to talk about the game and their "obsession" with the game. Ugh, I don't understand why people have to blame such horrible doings, on things that have nothing to do with the crime.

I guess if I ever lost it they'd have a few things to blame it on, but my mom, they'd have to blame her lunacy on her evil cat *giggle*

Spaz!

Ok so the hunt is on for a place that will hook me up with some tires for a good price. I'm such a freak about not blowing my money in one spot so I've been researching. Geez, who'd have though. Why can't I be one of those people that just say oh ok I need some tires, point to the first ones I see and hand over my card. NOOO not me! It doesn't work that way. Oy!

So I finally got the oil changed in my car and all is well.

Welp dood just called and the price is good, so I will have good new tires on my car tomorrow. Speedy is all fixed up. LOL That's her name, it fits her well :P

Mebe I need to go to some sort of meeting about my spazing out about things that REALLY don't need to be stressed over. Geez!

Be Blessed!

teh stretch

it's Monday, I should be in bed right now, but nope, I'm working. Why can't I have the same holidays as the banks/gov does. That would be awesome. Ahh well, it is quiet, well other then my co-worker walking in saying ok were were we. My sleepy eyed reply was uhhh, *insert completely wrong prop here* haha a few days has passed as well as a few drinks and I'm supposed to remember what is what from Friday. I think people expect too much from me :P haha

the weekend was good. I didn't do much of a lot, but I was chilled, and relaxed. That is how it should be. My car is clean, well the outside anyway, thanks Guy *hugs* today I take on the inside, it's not too bad, just needs a vacuum and the penguin trash to be taken out, and a new scent thing changed. Ugh reminds me, I need to take it in to get the oil changed and at some point, I'm going to have to break down and get some new tires. I don't know if my bank is ready for all that haha!

I am waiting to get XM radio for my car too. Mebe it will be an early Christmas present for me. I think I deserve it, I can't be sporting around a car with no good choons. Well other then cd's but sometimes I just want to plethora of diff choons.

Wooo Thanksgiving is almost here, I'm excited and then Christmas :D < my super big smile time for shopping, I think people are getting books this year. I think everyone deserves a good book every now and then, now just to find something they all like. What a nurd I am :P

Oki, now off to do some net search for pressies!

Be Blessed!

when i close my eyes

i am not where i should be

i am not sure where i am to be

just not here

***

i don't know why that thought often haunts me, but it does. i know not where i am to be or what i am to be doing. small town life is not for me, that i know of. i don't mind it, but i just don't see me being me here. well no that sounds wrong, i am me no matter where i am. i'm not one person here and another over there, that would be lying. that's not what i'm about, not now, not ever *heh*

this day is slow moving, and i have been busy, it makes for a long one. it's not a complaint, yet, but it may very well turn into one. why complain though, it gets me no where, right?

plans...hmm can't say i have any for anything soon. mebe i should make some...what to do what to do.

i need to do some Christmas brain storming, that i will do. Christmas, i think it's going to be great, i don't miss having someone around that is always bring me down, mebe it will be fun. alone, i just hate that. but that's all in the mind right? we'll see

meh, 'nuff rambling, it's just too quiet here, the whirring of the computer and fans are lulling me to sleep,...sleep, that sound nice, mebe i should go back to writing. like poetry writing, i think i could do something like that, it has been long enough. i might even post it here, who knows...mebe.

be blessed!
/fin

Oh Yeah Oh Yeah!!

*does the it's Friday dance*

It's weird that these days the weeks to by sooo fast. Well Wed. didn't go by fast, I kept falling asleep here at work and praying that the clock would somehow at some point get to 5:00, it did and I went home and crashed. I got some much needed zzz's.

It's that time again to go over there. Over where you ask, mmm just there, you know when you close your eyes, get in the car and point the nose where you want to go and auto-pilot takes over. Yeah, that's the way to be. I'm seriously going to just pack up my gear one of these weekend and head off, mebe north this time, I seem to drive south a lot, so north it is. I wonder where I'll end up, lost indeed, but I'm sure I'll get somewhere.

I plan on doing as little as possible this weekend, I don't do a whole lot, but I just want to lay low, have some drinks, laugh, think and enjoy the time. Mebe if I greatly enjoy it, I'll take Monday off. Hah! Ok, mebe not, but oh well. I work a lot, well I should say I go to work a lot, I don't always have something to do, but that is what I like about my job.

Channel 9 on XM Radio is always playing something good on Fridays, puts me in the mood to dance around, in my socks *it's wintertime, so I can wear my cutesy color socks with designs* and sing along at the top of my lungs. Hah, good times good times.

My bro is being unusually odd, I wonder what's up with him??

Be Blessed!

The Bad Boys of Rock Tour

it was great, I am tired, more on it later.

i got half a life ;)

Morning morning! I'm trying to wake up, I'm in the 3rd hour of my work day and I can't keep my eyes open. I got in a bit late last night from "over there" I made one phone call, turned on comp to check mails, and then lay down and watched Lisa Williams' show. It was great, I don't think I have anyone that would want to talk to me from the "other side" but hey, mebe one day I will talk to her. I know I passed out soon after it was over, so under an hour *I was skipping commercials, they just ruin the shows* I don't know why I feel so dead this morning. Needs Starbucks I'm thinking.

The past couple of weeks, I have been reading the archives of little-gamers, today I have caught up and now have completely read the whole collection. The lil doods make me laugh, and I like to read the rants that Mr. Madsen writes hah! I just feel bad for Marcus, he is hated on, makes me want to give him a huggle haha! Plastic dolls need luvs too :P I think he takes care of em all.

Ugh, I need foods, I didn't feel like eating this a.m. so I drove to the drive in of evil and got my dollar DP and came to work. I hope something good is for lunch because my tummy is talking to me, and needs to be hushed.

I need sleep, badly.

oooh yeah, Hinder is in a town over there, not sure if I am going, but if not, I will beat my brother repeatedly, because it will be his fault if I can't go.

mmm yeah, oki that's it.

Be Blessed!

teh Hugo

...dood has been grouching since he showed his face this morning :p

Brrr, it's cold!

Well not cold cold, but cold enough to make me break out my favorite orange pullover. Yay! I love this weather, but I don't think my cat does, she didn't run out of the house like she usually does this morning. She is so fuzzy now, hehe, cuteness!

It is too quiet in here, I'm off to find some choons!

Be Blessed!

The "Pick-Me-Up"

He saved us, not because of the righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He washed away our sins, giving us a new birth and new life through the Holy Spirit.
Titus 3:5 NLT

Awesome!

Welp, I had a good weekend, Friday I felt the death by boredom sliding in, but after some sleep and doing nothing came Saturday. The day I was to see the Crowns in concert. Wow! I can't really express how wonderful I felt during the concert, I felt relieved. I've been holding on to some stuff that just needed to be let go. Standing in the audience watching them do their thing for the Lord was great :)

I plan on adding more concerts to the list, hopefully Newsboys will be back around, they were in Austin this weekend, I want to see Jeremy Camp and Chris Tomlin at some point :)

On Sunday, we went to my grandparents house to celebrate my Grandpa's birthday which is today :) Had a good time, even if it was just for a few short hours :)

Time to get the week underday, ugh haha!

Be Blessed!

you take the breath right out of me

a line from a breaking benjamin song i have been listening to constantly for the past few days. it's good, i like it and guess what, i hear it *like the voices in my head*

so being home this weekend is odd. my dad was surprised to see me, he said "i thought you were going somewhere this weekend" lol i guess when you are gone all the time, you get those kind of responses. i'm just relaxing, slowly slipping into insanity while waiting for my ride to get here to wisk me away. yay!!

we are having dinner at Ryan's, i've eaten there one other time with he who must not be named LOL they had about the same amount of evilness deep within them. it was ok, but i'd rather have something else for dinner. it stinks being teh picky. oh well, i'm entitled, i'm the princess so everyone else can just hush up!

today i'm sporting the forgiven shirt, oh yeah i'm ready to go now :p i thin i need sleep haha.

be blessed!

something is missing

i don't know what it is, but it's there. i've been trying to keep myself all good, but something is just eating at me. *gag*

it's friday, i'm excited about that. mebe i will get some rest, mebe not, sleep seems to escape me these days. i get by though :p

nothing exciting to report, other then tomorrow i am going to be jamin' out at a concert and doing something i haven't done in ages. that could be fun, it will be fun, shoot i'll make it fun haha!

the office is quiet, no one is here, mebe it will stay that way, i kind of like it quiet n stuffs. only thing is, i get sleepy haha, i should have brought my book. i'd go get it, but in the 5 mins i'm gone, boss will show up, that's just how it goes.

perhaps i'll go and read up on some little-gamers :) they always make me laugh haha, might be the wake up i need.

song at the moment: beautiful disaster by john mclaughlin

good song :)

be blessed!

Fire in the sky

On my way home on Sunday, the sun began to set. It was hard to see at times, but as I was coming over a hill there it was, bright orangy red, streaking across the sky. The blinding ball of fire that sat there staring at me as I drove over the hill was beautiful. The blues of the sky were overtaken by the firey arms of the sun. I would love to have gotten a picture of it, but my phone cam wasn't a good one. Some things just need to be bottled and put on a shelf for a later time. I know I couldn't describe it to even make your mind paint the picture of the perfection, mebe next time.

Be Blessed!

I am home! Well I was home last night, just too tired to actually move to do anything. I had a really good time in Austin this weekend. I didn't expect anything different. I did a whole not of not too much and laughed. Oh and drinking a bit here and there. I don't play like I used to, so I chillin with friends and relaxing is always fun.

Now it's back to the usual weekly stuff. I think it will be pretty quiet today. Tomorrow I think the drafting begins *gag* LOL it's not all that bad, but sometimes I honestly think, flying monitors could be a new sport :P

My brain has been working over time in the thought department. New things present themselves every day. I don't usually grab on to them because I've always been rather, hmm, how you say...I guess scared of everything. I now want to just take over and do it all LOL You only live once right? You can let good things pass you by and you never even take the chance right?

Life is still about me, but I'm willing to bring "you" along :P *I'm really not self centered, I'm just fun ^_^

Be Blessed!